smile to my face

 Just changed my wall paper on my laptop and came across these pictures. Made me laugh out loud. Had a good night these were taken.

Miss these times.

HAPPY!!!!

I'm so much happier these days! I love the feeling of being a normal 18 year old. 

Going out with friends, shopping, eating with who i want, taking pictures with who i want without being scared. 

Love being told of for breaking curfew... it's normal.. Unlike being told of for being with him and doing wrong things because of him.

ARGHHHHHHHHH i really LOVE life now!!!! Some more it's a sunny day! =D

Went to St'James with Michelle and Joe last night. Had a good time, broke curfew by half an hour :s Oppsssss.... Had a good afternoon at vivo with Alvin, went to Marche and then sweensens for ice cream! YUMMY!!! =D

Got pictures from yesterday, will upload later tonight =D

Going to clean room now :)

Over due pictures!

Same routine at work today.... NEED TO LEARN CHINESE!!!

Babysitting the siblings tonight. Had yummy friend rice and a yummy home made curry to go with.

Mum smelt damn good tonight! hahaha... It was a body wash from bodyshop, i want!!!! 

I still can't find my bloody camera cable! So still can't upload my pictures! Well i uploaded some over due pictures from my phone :)

Tomorrow think going out with Davi ( girlfriend that flys) and Alvin ( my SIA wana be friend ) haha

B: Good luck in field camp this week! 

Maria: Day time sentosa tan and St.James in the evening, 24th?!!! 

Jas: You too lol.

Kat: Want you too but you in Malaysia -.-

Well here's the over due pics!!!!! ( oldest to latest :)

This was Like Christmas eve or something like that! Went Starbucks with two friends for lunch. Not all the food is mine k!

After Christmas mum went back to England and when she came back she bought a whole suitcase full of English food that you can't buy in Singapore!! ahaha look at it!!

Went to Indochine last Wednesday. Spoke with Jeff, ( he plays there ) Damn good! Asked me to be in the bands music video :)

Weekend went to Bev house, Sean was there as usual haha they both getting ready for camp, Chloe had her Birthday! Happy birthday darling!!!

The view from Bev sitting room, damn nice!!!! LOVE the pool.. We all watched the boats from the race go past and then all had lunch at the golf club on Sentosa, Yummy! :)

Decided my old wardrobe was WAY TO SMALL! So got a new one, well actually i turned my extra room into a real walk in wardrobe haha... Didn't know i had so many clothes until i took them all out and put them on my sofa! *faint*

This isn't even half my shoes! ( i want more ) heheh

My spare room, after everything had been taken out, the yellow wall i painted myself! It took my days to draw the lines ! ^-^

See how small the old clothes space was! omg!! really really can not!

Well here is the new one!! It's damn big and super nice! LOVE it ^-^

See the shelves and drawers ! Not finished yet, still very messy heheh...

Well i'm going to get some sleep, working in the morning tomorrow, so much today! 

Grrrrr....

Wala wala toilet 

Bad times

I told you i was a let down and no good. 

I really have had a day from hell.

Everything i try to do goes wrong. Even when i have good intentions it goes wrong. for example, my washing. I thought that by doing my own washing that was the right thing. So instead of putting only one out fit in the washing machine i would wait till i had a bundle of white or colours, then put one wash in. That's wrong though.

Also work is giving me so much stress. I know that sounds so pathetic. Yes everyone has work but my job has BIG communication problems. That's all i'm saying.

I need to learn Chinese also, i feel so left out, EVERYONE talks in Chinese at work.

Had a big issue at work today that caused me to stay till 7:30pm. Didn't call my mum to let her know i would be late, so got scolded. Yesterday also got scolded.

Family or work?

I just wanted to eat a chocolate chip and banana muffin tonight :( Didn't get to :(

I can't find my camera cable either :( Grrrrr want to upload my pictures!

I'll curl up in my bed and brush the tears of my face.

Miss you

xox

Random thoughts

Not much today, Maria ask me to go out next weekend =)

and B called me. Was talking to him and Sean like screaming in the background lol, then turns out Leon is in the same bunk as B!!!! OMG... so spoke to Leon! =D

Oh before i go to my bed byes there is one thing i want to say. Everyone should watch the news or read the news paper. We should know what is going on in the world. 

Okie, work tomorrow. Tired.... Waaaaa only one more day till my new wardrobe!!! =D

Sorry i let you down, i'm not a daughter that you are proud of and it hurts :( I'm not smart, clever, pretty... I let you guys down over and over, hate the feeling :(

Sorry, so so sorry.

xx

Weekend update

Thursday i was feeling like crap so went to the doctors on Friday. Got a case of the flu :( and a throat infection. Chesty cough and horrible running nose :(

Got a wardrobe! LOVE it! I designed it myself! All the things will be built in to my room on Wednesday! YAY!

Saturday i went to the expo to the tattoo show. OMG crazy! Even Chris from LA ink was there! waaaa so good! One guy was standing in a thong and had his whole body done! His bum! EVERYTHING! 

( got lots of pics but can't find my camera cable :(  

After that i met Alvin at Vivo and we did a little shopping. Was supposed to meet B and some others Saturday but mum invited guests over so i went home. Then couldn't go out to late :(

They all went to St.James in the end any way.

Went over to Sentosa cove today!! LOVE it there, so relaxed. Being on Sentosa cove is like being in a different country. So nice. with all the houses and river and the sea. Went to see sean and b. Chloe had her birthday yesterday so all her balloons were all over the house. Sean wanted to play with helium haha. IDIOT!

We all went to the golf course on Sentosa for lunch, yummy yummy, so pretty there. Then Sean wanted to go to Vivo for a while so B drove us all over to vivo. Walked around for a while then got bored and tired so drove back to Sentosa cove. Boys got ready for army and then B dad took us all to Pasir ris. We all had dinner then we said our bye byes :(

Their going to be confined for two weeks cos of field camp :( grrrrrr....

Will upload all my pics once i have found my camera cable :(

Going to bed now, chest hurts :(

Night night!

x

love and war

I wrote a story here about love and war....... I just deleted it.... not worth it.

Why are guys confusing ?

new year resolutions

1. Spend more time with the family
2. Learn chinese
3. Get a diploma
4. Save my money
5. Spend more time with friends
6. Forget the past

Want to put get a driving license but don't think that will happen as number 4 would suffer if i did. These 6 things however, i really hope to look back in a years time and say, I DID IT!

Words

Careful what you say, i should no that...... a few simple words can hurt the strongest of people and you can't take them back once they have come out of your mouth.

I should no this more than any one...... I'm no better now.... Sorry will not fix things, so how?

sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry

DADDY.

x

2009

     

Happy new year!! 2009! 

Wednesday i had half day at work, went to meet maria in town for a bit after work but made sure i was home by 6:20 for dinner. Ate with dad and Madel. Then B picked me up and we all went to one 15 on Sentosa for more food! Really nice place! Love the shark fin and chicken soup yum yum.

I was asked if i wanted to go to the new year party with them all so i said yes as had no other plans :)

Went to the party about 10, fun! There were about 15 of us... Super super hot though, in the ned we all went in the foam section, soaking wet! Was freezing after. No mood to party any more cos we got to cold. Ji eyes the whole not were super funny lol. Idiot.

We all stayed on Sentosa, very very nice house! I LOVE! Wen we got back to the house caity and i ended up eating LOADS of choc ice cream, I WANT MORE PLEASE!

Next day we all woke up late, Caity and i got the hair straighteners out and straightened indian mans hair lol.... So funny..... Caity and i ate MORE choc ice cream and we all ordered pizza hut!

Wen back home, asked dad if he wanted me to cook, said no. Got home and he seemed angry, not sure why. Went upstairs, came down at 10+ to get the dogs and dad had gone out. Turned lights of left door open for him and went to bed.

Friday night was Caity and Bens last night before they went back to Perth. Asked dad if i could go out for a while he wasn't happy, said i wouldn't be long, he said fine. I cooked dinner for hte new Maid Win and asked dad if he wanted some he said no he was going out again. After dinner, i showed Win how the washing machine worked and showed her where things were kept. Then after that i walked the dogs with her. Came home and showed her how the t.v worked. Then B, Caity, Ben, indian man all picked me up  and we went to a Italian restaurant for dinner, i didn't eat much as already ate at home.

Dad asked me to be home by 11 but i was back by 10. Saturday was half day at work, came home and messaged dad if he wanted me to make lunch for him, he said no.  Left about 2 to go to suntec to strip then the taxi driver got really nasty with me :'( was shouting and screaming, crazy guy i think. I was a little late for my appointment at strip so the women called me then she heard the guy screaming at me so when i got to strip she was very nice asked if i was k and reported the guy to the taxi company. 

Was feeling a bit ill and cos of the stupid taxi driver i missed my appointment. So i left and went to Sentosa. Sean and B where there. We all watched t.v, was starting to feel a bit sick. Dad was messaging me, angry over different things, although i wasn't sure what. I asked if dad wanted me to cook again, he said no, he was going out but he was angry that i was going out again, said it wasn't fair that i left Win alone. I told him i would be back early. He said by 8:30 i said k but i was back by 7.

Now it's Sunday, i feel sick sick sick :( Said some really hurtful things to my dad. Shouldn't of said it at all. Was just so hurt. No excuse. He just wont talk to me. I tried i did, he just thought i was being cocky. I wasn't.......... Ho hum.

Picture time.

Me, Ben, Caity and B

  

Caity and me

 

After the meal, so funny lol

Party!

Mr.B and me, haha bold because of army! ahahahah

Ji and me

Clo and me

Sick :(