The truth :)

It was my of day on Tuesday and i went to woodlands and ate pizza for lunch :) hehe.... Went to tanglin mall and waited for Mr.Hussey to get his passport from the American place.... Sat at starbucks and had this jelly drink ( that made me feel super weird =/).....

Taylor come over! =D

Haven't seen him in agessssssss.... He walked over form the American club and met me! We all finished our drinks and decided to go back over to the American club for Tiger Tuesday :) Met Sandy, Andrew and the others there.... Mutley got me a choclate milkshake, Sooooooooooo GOOD!!!! Waaaa best milkshake ever! Didn't stay long, went back over to Woodlands place and went online for a while.. Then i felt ewww,

( Chris swears it's the jelly from starbucks -.- )

lol... So i layed down for a while. Then it just started. Started talking... Right back to when i was at Woking high... right up untill that very moment i was laying down.... I have never done that before. I admit, in the past when i told people things i would of twisted it to make it sound not as bad.

However i didn't... I spilled everything..

The fact that i lied and dated the wrong guys and to many. The fact that i had put my parents through hell and i messed up at school... I left all the gor inside.... I'm not going to spill the gor here for everyone to see BUT the importnat thing is it felt so good. To be able to tell the truth... To spill all my bad deeds out.... and then..... have that person say thankyou... Tell me that they were proud of me.... They told me that what i had done is bad and that things need to change... Yes they do... My parents have been telling me for a long time... Things feel so very different now... I am mixing with kids my own age again, mixing with western kids again. I'm being me. I stopped wearing so much makeup, dressing up, clubbing even seems to not be important now. I would much rather have a movie night with my friends and take out pizza at home... I'm slowlyyyy. ( a little to slowly ) starting to realise and look at things in a different picture.... There isn't a need for me to act all grown up and try to be something i'm not. I just hope things will continue going up and stop slipping back down....

Feel happy and feel good.....

*B If you know you will have to lie to your parents about what your doing then it means it's wrong and you shouldn't be doing it B *

I'm going to remember this everytime from now on, before i take action in something.....

It's good to talk to your parents. That's what they are there for, to guide you.... Feeling good about the future.... I just had to clear up one major problem. Remember i told you that i lied and stayed out at my friends house... Yeh.. BIG NO NOOO.... Yet i did it and now i will have to face the punishment on Saturday..... After that, lets jsut hope it's not to late and i don't get but in a cargo box back to England...

It feels so good to be around western kids my age, doing normal things, like shopping, cinema, sleepovers.... it's great :)

Love you all....

This is the real me.. ^.^

WESTERNNNNNN!

;)

( My british accent is ocming back! )

:)